Caution - contains adult language. Don't say you weren't warned. Still clueless after all these years... After all my time on the net having a page that tells what it's like to be fat in this society and catering to links of interest to fat folks, I've come to the realization that some people still are, and probably will remain, clueless as to what it's all about.
They twist what I say, screw up what I mean, yell at me for saying something that I didn't...
Oyyyy... Now, listen up folks. I'm going to say this as clearly as I can. In no way do I say (or believe) anyone should be fat...nor do I say (or believe) they should be thin. In other words, I don't say anyone should be *any* particular size. I do say that I refuse to let anyone, including myself, judge my worth on my size. Fat is not wrong and thin is right. Neither is fat right and thin wrong. For crying out loud, body's come in all fucking sizes!!! Get a
damned grip!!! The world is so unbelievably screwed up. Child abuse is on the front page everywhere... being committed by people who should most definitely not be committing it. The Middle East and parts of Europe are falling apart. Terrorists have blown open the heart of America, gangs are rampant, crime is in places we never believed we would see it...and with all the other bizarre stuff going on in this mixed up world, people are STILL worried about what size my (and their) ass is. I
get accused of encouraging people to be fat (nowhere do I ever say
that - or think it), or told by strangers that they're worried about my health (sure, now go slap that Big Mac out of *everybody's* hands at MickeyDs if you're so worried about other people's health -- and by the way -- I'm a
vegetarian...). I get sent unsolicited diet information (some of that stuff would choke a goat)
from idiots who are just really, really pissed off at me. Of course,
these morons get even more annoyed if the fat chick mouths off right back to them. Where the hell do these people get the idea that they are allowed to get nasty with me but
get all uppity and offended if I get nasty right back? Apparently they think that's also one of the things that fat people should be denied. I guess for far too long, a lot of fat folks have let others walk all over them without raising an eyebrow or opening their mouth, so when some bigot encounters one who
doesn't slink away, or who stands up and says that they want to be treated like a human being, the shit really hits the fan. The average fat-bigot who comes across Jellyroll's Home Page is horrified to see
a site from a fat chick standing up for herself. How dare she even BE fat let alone demand respect?!? And how dare she have a WEB PAGE about it!!! For some reason, it really gets under their skin seeing me post links to clothes for fat folks, social groups, *real* health information on weight and dieting, dating information, sex, love and everything else that's here. They take it upon themselves to have to set me straight on MY life and MY page and MY opinions. The excuses for the abuse people have dished out
to me through emails over my years on the net would fill a book. Bottom line is that what they're doing is sending hate thinly disguised as "advice" -- usually while attempting to shove it down my throat with the lame explanation that it's "for my own good". Bullshit. Hate is hate no matter how you try to dress it up. Many of them try to use that age-old disclaimer of "caring about my health" which, for some reason they believe will make me sit up and listen to the rest of their hateful message. What a load of crap. These people don't really
care about my health, they just don't like looking' at fat people -- and they surely don't like hearing from them or having to face the possibility of RESPECTING them. I
do find it amusing that the people who have written to tell me where to get off really believe that their opinions somehow matter to me and that I should be thankful that they've taken the time to abuse and "enlighten" me. That somehow, they're right and I'm wrong and they have a
fucking constitutional right to hate me and I better just shut up and take it.
Wow... ain't this country grand? Like it or not, the bottom line is this -- NO MATTER WHAT MY SIZE, I have a right to live my life, walk this earth, and be a productive member of society. I have a right to clothes that fit and are fashionable, makeup, exercise tapes, food, computers, cars, friends, love, a spouse, a job and everything else that any other person may want or desire in life. And I have a right to this web site and to share all the information on it no matter who does or doesn't like it. A funny thing happened to me along the way to my mid 30s. I grew up and got a life. I stopped putting everything on "hold" until I became "size whatever". I live my life and maintain my web site at whatever size I happen to be - no matter who does or doesn't like it. Life's too short not to. To the next person who feels they have to "fix" me, my opinions or this site, I say, "You really need to fix yourself first" (or "fuck off" - whichever happens to suit the situation best). Because frankly, anyone who has such a void in their life that they need to spend time sending e-mails picking on me and my site is the one who needs to be "fixed". Don't like my attitude, my looks, my site or anything else about me... who cares? You can't please everyone so you got to please yourself (thanks Ricky Nelson...) And that's exactly what
I'm going to do. |
